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Said, I despise that I adore you

This is so shitty, ha ha. Whatever -____________- I'm so gonna fail SS test cause I was so tired that I use the time to sleep instead of doing my paper. But I just felt so refreshed after I wake up. I got my energy back. But, during assembly, I felt like sleeping again! Stupid right. Me and Ziyan walked all the way to 96 bus stop, and then when we were there, I couldn't find my wallet. I thought I lost it man, scared the hell out of me. So, Ziyan hunt around in my bag and she found out how I place my ****. HAHA! So, I quickly called Vicki to help me check if my wallet was in class, and she said it was. So immediately walked back to school and run back to class to take it from Elroy!! Then walk back to 96 bus stop again! HAHA. Went central with Ziyan to buy food to eat. Today, both of us are practically broke! HAHA!! We ended up eating till we're so dam full, and then we still run all the way up to the MRT cause we saw the MRT is coming in 2minutes (Ziyan's idea) HAHA. And both of us saw some horrible things at Jurong East. HAHA. Damn funny eh. I like going home with her, can laugh like mad!

 

I'm going to fix my webcam cause stupid ziyan keeps pestering me, HAHAHA.

Biatch!!!!!!

So, i heard a super surprising news and something which really pissed me off the whole day today. Like, I didn't expect you to be such an asshole, such a bitch, such a untrustworthy person. So you practically told the things I told you out, and you said it was meant to be a secret(?) Wow, you don't even keep your word. Why don't I just sell your secrets too. Asshole. I really hate you alot. You better get out of my sight and don't let me find out any other things you have been blurting out or I swear I won't let you have a nice life and I will rip you apart. You just want what you want. I won't let you have your way. You watch out. Stop acting like some big shot, you've no respect for people, especially your seniors. You only know how to use your vulgarities to come and scold people. So you think i'm afraid of you? No I'm not, you want to play, I can play along with you anytimes, bitch _l_

Today was my worst day in my entire year. I ate the cough medicine this morning, which caused me to feel so drowsy the whole day. So, I was like half dead. I skipped PE and then I slept and talked to Vicki cause she skip PE with me too :) Then during the 3 free periods, I think I slept for 2 periods at the design studio. Mr Goh kept asking me to go home since I'm sick! But seriously, damn tired. I close my eyes, I sleeep.

Oh yah! After school, Me, Ziyan, Siying, Shermeen and Sheri decided to go central. And on our way out from school, Shermeen was taking pictures, so we have to stop. And this shitty girl behind was like asking us to move in a loud tone. I already never shout back at her and continue walking. Yet, when we are walking to clear the way for her, she was like "Here so small path still wanna talk picture." So, I can't stand it anym. She's in bad luck because today I'm in a horrible bad moood, so I scolded her back. Ziyan also scolded her. HAHA. Damn funny. Then we went to Big Bookshop to buy their ring files, then Siying went to Sheri's house, Shermeen went home, Me and Ziyan went to eat before going home :)

I'm so tired. Tuition tonight. I'm going to sleeeeep :(

Right or wrong?

HELLOOOOO. Today is a great, not great day. Half great, half not great. I frigging failed my phys test, again! I need to study! Hello study motivation, when are you coming to me?? And and and, stayed back in school in the hall with Siying and Luanne after school to practise the piano!!! And you know shittyhell, I was damn nervous. I kept screaming!!!!!! And it's really scary. I was damn really damn scared, damn nervous, for the whole day! Then we cabbed to redhill, bought bubbletea. They both pursued and keep asking me to treat them. So, being the nice and generous Huiqi, I treated them!!! HAHA. Then we walked to cresent. Stupid teachers started the exam so late, so we all ended late. And the teacher scold me like mad :(:( She said I was an F9 standard. She said I never play enough, never practise. But I did la!!!! It's just, I'm nervous right! Screw her, she totally scolded me :(:(

I THINK IM SO DAMN DAMN DAMN DAMN DEAD.
I wish everything will be alright.

Stay strong

Everything's like screwed. Okay my damn whole life is screwed. Should I even care? I don't know :(:( Tons of stuffs waiting for me to do, but I don't even have the interest to do it. Pizzahut with my class girls after school, then back to school for chemistry practical. Went back home, stupid xuanbin pangseh-ed me halfway. I'm damn tired.

你开心了吗??!??!?!? Now i'm in this state, I bet you're laughing your heads off.

P.S I thank god for giving me such wonderful friends who tried their best to cheer me up, listen to me when i've problems or when i'm upset, and standing by me everytime i fall.

Edited

OH YAH. I forget to add something. Siying is a crazy mad person. She wears wrong socks to school. Each leg different colour! HAHHA DAMN FUNNY. And, she tried seducing me at Luanne's house by touching my legs and using her socks to tickle me. So I was like "Resist the temptation, Siying!" Cause the show was like about this casanova who like beds with every girl at the pub. HAHA so it's like when the girl he likes drunk at his house, he tried to take advantage of her, but me and siying was like shouting at the TV "STOP! RESIST THE TEMPTATION!" HAHA BLOOODY FUNNY.

Womanizer

I foresee a busy week. I foresee something bad.

Gosh, I got tons of stuffs to do. And I'm not done with my piano practicing yet. Die, and exams on wednesday. Wow.. So, went to Luanne's house with Siying after ATP today, and then we stayed at her house till like 6.40pm! HAHA laughed like mad. Their duet damn cute, can make me laugh. Then we camwhored, eat Luanne's icecream and drink her drink! HAHA. And we camwhored like crazy too. DNT journal submission again tomorrow, you shall see how I die man, screwed.

 

Maybe we're torn apart,

Studyyyyyy :(

Hello. Omg, midyears are around the corner, like i think less that a week, and guess what, I haven't started studying or revising yet. So shit, I'm dead. I just can't get the mood or motivation, whatever you call it, to study. I seriously should throw everything aside and stop procrasinating and start taking my book to study.

I didn't sleep well last night, I had had had this wierd dream. Still, it isn't real, but the dream seems impossible, hah! Furthurmore, I had piano lessons at 11am. And my brother's out with his friends to study and catch a movie later. So i'm considering to go and catch a movie later too.

DONT WALK AWAY.

Contradicting

I THINK I SHOULD JUST GO AND JUMP OFF THE BUILDING'S LEDGE NOW AND KILL MYSELF.

I had a great time talking to sharon today. She's really great to talk to :)

Phone billsssssssssssss

HAHA OMG IM DAMN HAPPY CAUSE MY BILL CAME LIKE DAYS BEFORE AND MY DAD ONLY TALK TO ME ABOUT THIS TODAY. AND HE DIDNT NAG MUCH OR WHAT. ESPECIALLY MY MESSAGES HE DIDNT NAG! WHOOOHOO. HE ONLY KINDA SCOLDED ME FOR THE CALL TIME EXPLODING. YAYAYAYYAYAYYA. OKAY SINCE HE DIDNT SCOLD ME, I SHALL TRY USING MORE AND SEE IF HE SCOLDS! HAHHA.

Put across words

Wow, how great. Everybody's sick in my family. My grandma came back from overseas last night, and she's sick too, so the whole flu virus is in my house. *Dangerous*

I really don't know how to describe you.. Ugh, can be pissing sometimes, yknow. I've a tolerance level too.

Kind of missed you

I'm so damn bored now. There's like hardly anyone online, if not then they're away from the keyboard. Most of my girlfriends and friends are at Lucinda's party now and i'm frigging upset my dad doesn't allow me to go :(:( Whateverrrr -.-

Went to WM to fix my specs and then had dinner. I poke my blister and accidently poke into my flesh which cause it to be even swollen and it bleed. Screwed. I can't wear my shoe, it hurts.

I WANT A MEET-UP :(

Headache

他妈的，我的头好痛！！！！！！！！

I'm so dang bored at home :(:(:( Playing games with Amanda online and she's like thrashing me in minesweeper!

Stay close, dont go.

These few days really hasn't been fine, kind of worse.
Okay whatever.

So, cats musical on wednesday. It wasn't as nice as I thought, only like the starting and the ending is nice, to me. Yeah, so Vanessa came over to my house after school, and then abigail came at around 4plusplus. We webcam with Vicki and Lucinda and ended up laughing like shit.

Yesterday stayed in school to do DNT with abigail, chuifann and vanessa. I think i'm dead. My DNT screwed, midyears exams next week and i haven't started revising a single shit. Wow, gl to me man.

Parade this morning was such a waste of time!!!!

Happy 16th!!!!

Hellooooo :) Yaye, i'm finally 16! HAHA. I had lots of fun, and this year's birthday was a-w-e-s-o-m-e! I was really really happy yaye!

First I want to thank the people who send me birthday messages, especiall those who stayed up late at night to wish me, or purposely wake up to wish me, yeah! :D
These great and awesome people are: Amanda Tan, Eric Noble Teo, Katherine Tan, Dennie Ho, Abigail Ng, Veluriya Ong, See Xuanbin, Chui Fann, Hazel Chua, Shi Jie, Eugene Tan, Chenghao, Joel Ng, Shermeen Ong, Luanne Tan, Tan Siying, Vicki Tan, Vanessa Chong, Hui Xian, Sheri, Shimin and Steven!
HAHA yaye seriously love you guys alot man, thanks! :D

And also not forgetting people who wished me in rl, fb and any other forms :)

And thank these people for the presents, love you people many many: Lim Ziyan, Luanne Tan, Vanessa Chong, Amanda Tan, Tan Siying, Shermeen Ong, Sheri Xie, Veluriya Ong, Vicki Tan, Abigail Ng, Wong Chui Fann and Desmond Woo. YAYE YOU PEOPLE ROCK :D

So, I flunk my dnt this time round. Well, pretty upset yeah, cause it's like failed. Felt so.. hopeless alr. So Mr Goh want to meet Abigail and me to talk about our dnt, so went to workshop to talk with Mr Goh, then after that went to stay back and wait for Chui Fann eat her lunch and then me and her went back to the library to talk to Mr Goh. Yeah, talk about many many things. Seriously almost everything. Yeah felt better. And then dad came to fetch me cause i was having severe cramps.

@9.09pm:
Went for dinner with my family just now at IMM. Then went to buy cake, come home and cut cake and blabla. And, I WANT TO KILL AMANDA AND VANESSA alr. Omg, the picture -.-

And, I need to set my heart on something, I need to love myself more! Abigail and Mr Goh both said the same stuffs to me :) Today, I'm going to start anew, set!

Best girlfriends!

3 More Hours to my birthday, yaye :D

Helloooooo, today was awesome! Like damn damn damn awesome. Okay fine, i seriously hate my new hair cut. Everybody just suaned and laughed at me like shit. HAHA, and vanessa can't stop saying bawang, vel can't stop saying i'm going back to china today, and and and amanda and ziyan can't stop laughing when they see me!

ATP after school, got test. I just scribbled any answer on it, cause it's multiple choice. Then went over back to class, and thanks desmond for helping me with my maths corrections! Thanks a million! I know i'm stupid, hahha! Then went over to canteen with Siying and Vanessa to wait for the rest. Then the BAND1 students came out alr, so Amanda went home to change and shower. Me, Ziyan, Siying, Vanessa and Shermeen went to Sheri's house! HAHA we totally camwhored like shit and laughed like mad! We played with many things. Then amanda came around 4. Then, we went over to clementi central to meet luanne at around 5plus. Then we 183-ed to Sakura at Clementi Woods. HAHHA damn funnnn! And we eat like shit, laughed like shit. They keep saying and suaning and laughing at my pronounciation problem! HAHHA. But still it was fun. And then they make a cake for me and plus icecream and candles. And, I specifically told them not to sing birthday song cause it's so paiseh, but they still went to sing! Sing twice somemore, somemore so loud. My face totally gone man, but still thanks girlfriends!! HAHAH then we were like guessing who will be full first! HAHAH I think Amanda! Cause she eat until stomachache and want to vomit! HAHAH. I was not even very full at all. I think I gained pounds and pounds! But, i dont care! HAHAH. And then we went out to camwhore, amanda went to vomit. Daddy came and fetch me, shermeen and ziyan at around 8plusplus!

And i forgot to add that squidward came to visit me just when i reached home!

P.S Pictures uploaded in fb :D

TODAY WAS FUN! Like, mad! Thanks Ziyan, Vanessa, Amanda, Luanne, Siying, Shermeen and Sheri. Love you people to bits :D:D

Laughing is the best damn thing.

I'm rotting alr. 3 days of holiday seriously isn't too good, i'm not used to it. Ha ha. So, piano lessons in the morning, then I did my work, then was lunch. After that, went to play audition with Vanessa. Hazel joined us too :) I can't figured out how she guessed the room's password! HAHA. Shit! And Vanessa was crapping all the way. She was trying to make me talk to her so I will miss, and then she can thrash me! HAHA. And she keep saying crappy stuffs and lame stuffs like "Eh you wear heel dance not pain meh?" and "Hello, I'm momofied.(If you get it)" HAHA. Danm shitty. I laughed like mad! And I want to kill and slap her tomorrow alr. HAHAHA. Wow, another boring sunday. Should I or should I not go and sleeep now!

TMD NB _l_
Screwwwwwwwwyouuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu.



2 more days to my birthday, yayeyee :D:D

Dreams.

You're inches from my finger tips, I've come as close as I can get.
I'm reaching, but the rest is up to you. I don't ever want to miss lying here with you like this.

I CANT WAIT, SERIOUSLY :D:D:D

Someone save me.

I think i'm going to die soon. Now I've the flu on me. Shittyhellboobs. Runnynose doesn't stop. Screwed. Was talking to Ziyan and Sheri on skype just now, and Ziyan the slowpoke don't know how to make her microphone work until a long long long time. And she keep saying she hates tuesday and love monday. I wanna kill her alr. HAHAH. But yknow for me, I totally look forward to these two days, yaye. I know this layout is shitty simple, but I don't care, cause i think i will be changing back to the old one soon.

Once upon a time.

3 More Days to my Birthday :D:D

No, I didn't mean it, really didn't. I didnt mean a single shit I said to you. Im sorry.

Oh great crap, i'm feeling better alr but the bloody temperature still stays so high @ 38.2 degrees. So i went to nap for half an hour just now before coming online. And yknow what's the best damn thing? I have tuition later. Oh crap. I just dont feel like anything else but sleep now. Seriously. The headache kills. And like there's so little people online now, nobody to entertain me. HAHAH. And I forget to add that I went to cut my hair this morning, and I hate the hairdresser for screwing it up, cause i think i look extremely wierd now. Freak.

4 More Days to my birthday, yaye.

And the current happiest and most exciting thingy that is making me look forward to is next monday and tuesday. Yayeeeee. :)

And Vanessa and Ziyan the two biggest jokers are making me laugh like mad in msn. Vanessa and her cats' meow, and ziyan with her less than 1mm thin faceskin. And i think i'm mad, laughing at the computer myself. But it's seriously damn funny. Ohmygawd!

HAHA OMG. THIS IS DAMN FUNNY. CHOOSE NOT TO READ IF YOU WANT :D


(8:26 PM) ZIYAN THE ARTIST: YO GUGU SAI

(8:48 PM) baby, they're tu: YOOHOO
Eh monday we go eat sakura
comfirm!
yeah!

(8:59 PM) ZIYAN THE ARTIST: AFTER ATP ?!
IMMEDIATELY ?!!!

(8:59 PM) baby, they're tu: NO!
Start at 630 the buffet
4plus dont have!

(9:01 PM) ZIYAN THE ARTIST: SIANXZXZXZXZXZXZXZ
OMGS I NEEED TO JIANFEI FOR MONDAY !

(9:02 PM) baby, they're tu: HAHA MONDAY DONT EAT RECESS!!!!!!!!!!
IF NOT LATER CANNOT EAT ALOT!
HAHAH!

(9:03 PM) ZIYAN THE ARTIST: YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAS

(9:03 PM) baby, they're tu: hAHAH!

(9:04 PM) ZIYAN THE ARTIST: AHAHAHAHAHAS, WAHLAOOO YOUU ALREADY PLAN HAO HAO !
MA DE SAI !

(9:04 PM) baby, they're tu: HAHAHA

(9:04 PM) baby, they're tu: OF COURSE MIUST PLAN LA

(9:05 PM) ZIYAN THE ARTIST: SAIIIIIIII !!!
AHAHAHAHHAAS

(9:05 PM) baby, they're tu: HAHA

(9:05 PM) ZIYAN THE ARTIST: MA DE ! TELLL ME WHAT YOUU WANT LAA
YOU'RE SUPER SAI LEHHHHHHHHHH

(9:05 PM) baby, they're tu: HAHAH I DONT KNOW
4 MORE DAYS YAYE!

(9:05 PM) ZIYAN THE ARTIST: SAIIIIIIIII

(9:05 PM) baby, they're tu: hAHHAH

(9:06 PM) ZIYAN THE ARTIST: LOOK AT MY PM !

(9:06 PM) baby, they're tu: HAHA WLAU
MUST HAPPY FACE

(9:06 PM) ZIYAN THE ARTIST: D: SIANXZXZXZ SI LE
SAD SI LE D:

(9:07 PM) baby, they're tu: HJAHAHA

(9:07 PM) ZIYAN THE ARTIST: LOOOK !!
AHAHAHAHAHAHAS
(
9:07 PM) baby, they're tu: HAPPY SI LE
WLAU!
HAHAH

(9:07 PM) ZIYAN THE ARTIST: SIAN SI LE
D:

(9:07 PM) baby, they're tu: WHAT SIAN!

(9:07 PM) ZIYAN THE ARTIST: :D

(9:07 PM) baby, they're tu: HEHAHO

(9:08 PM) baby, they're tu: SIAN AH THEN MONDAY YOU DONT GO EAT AH?!?!?
HAHAHHA!
I thought you love eating!
HAHAHAHHA
HOHOHOHO
HOW CAN YOU BE SIAN
IS YOUR LAOPO'S BIRTHDAY!

(9:11 PM) ZIYAN THE ARTIST: SIANNN ! CAN WE DIVORSE FOR AFTER THE TREAT ON MONDAY ?
THEN PATCH BACK ON WEDNESDAY !

(9:11 PM) baby, they're tu: WLAU!
WLAU!

(9:11 PM) ZIYAN THE ARTIST: CANNN ?

(9:11 PM) baby, they're tu: WLAU!

(9:11 PM) ZIYAN THE ARTIST:

(9:11 PM) baby, they're tu: CANNOT LA!

(9:12 PM) ZIYAN THE ARTIST: :D

(9:12 PM) baby, they're tu: SLAP YOU AH!

(9:12 PM) ZIYAN THE ARTIST: WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
AHHAHAHAHHAS

(9:12 PM) baby, they're tu: I KILL YOU. CANNOT!
HAHAHHA

(9:12 PM) ZIYAN THE ARTIST: OMGS ! I AM LAUGHING !
THIS SOUNDS SO FUNNY !!!
AHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAS

(9:12 PM) baby, they're tu: AHHA IM ALSO LAUGHING LIKE MAD!
AHHAHAH

HAHAHAH OMGGGGG!!!!!!!! LIMZIYAN IS ONE BIG JOKER :D

Today's shit cause i'm down with a fever when there's no school. I'm stuck at home, daddy's sick toooooo :( I highly suspect i'm going to die soon. Bye people, in any case.

5 MORE DAYS TO MY BIRTHDAY, YAYE.

Yaye, I got the photos from sharon alr, it was from sherm's birthday party!
HAHAHA OKAY I WAS DAMN HAPPY ON THAT DAY. IT WAS ONE OF THE HAPPIEST DAY IN THIS YEAR. YOU SHOULD KNOW WHY :) IF YOU CANNOT REMEMBER, IT'S ON THE 3RD APRIL 2009!

Yayeeee, and and and, today is thursday, and tomorrow is good friday which means, no school!

Soooooooo, school was pretty fine today, except we ran like mad during PE. And as usual, vanessa gave up running, I kept shouting to her: "Remember our goal." And she still stopped in the end! HAHA and next week it's our 2.4run. I pray hard I will pass man. I dont want to re-run or whatever, it's a waste of my time and energy. So, we are supposed to hand in our dnt journal today, but mr goh postpone the deadline to monday. It's a good thing but on the other hand, i chionged till so late last night and was like wasted or something. Guides commendation day parade at around 3 and lasted till around 4 odd? And me and vanessa the cool shit people are the only one in the whole guides which never wear full uniform yeah! HAHA rockon man :)

Went home and I climbed the staircase up, yaye :) Tuition laterrrrr! OH! And Happy Birthday Shirlyn.

Mixed feelings,

"I don't even know what i'm hoping for."

What's wrong with us. What's wrong with me, what's wrong with you. I wished the time would stop for me to think. But in any case, it doesnt seems to. And, I just miss you so terribly. I don't want to think positively because I know or I'm afraid everything's just a dream or something that will be gone after awhile.

I lied, I've always preferred you to be nice to me. I can't be a selfish jerk.

Omg, what's wrong with me :(

Today marks the worst damn day in my life. I want to cry. I think i got a big sense of judgement error.
But still thanks people, especially Vanessa, Luanne and Xuanbin. Yeah. Thanks.

I told you long ago, it's just too good to be true.

So unbelievable,


HAPPY BIRTHDAY VICKI "TEN". YOU'RE SIXTEEN BABY. ONE MORE WEEK TO MINE! :D YAY. HAHA, love you deep deep man. SOULMATES YO :D

IT'S RAINING IT'S POURING, THE OLD MAN IS SNORING :)
Im so happy in the first two periods cause christine tan didn't come! WHOOHOO. HAHA SO = FREE PERIODS = TALK. Laughed and practically being "bullied" like mad by Eric Noble Teo, See Xuanbin and Desmond Woo. They are all mean people (you all better keep my secret)!

After school decided to skip commendation day parade. Went to central with Sheri and Ziyan. Me and Ziyan bought cheese fries to eat and then we took 106 to west mall to buy ziyan's thumbdrive! YAY, and i walked home in the rain, and im planning to not wash my head now and let me get a fever please god, a fever high enough to let me skip school.

It just doesn't feels the same anymore.

I really really want to skip school. HAHA. I'm so happy during chinese cause i finlly passed my mock exam! 52marks! YES AND THE MOST IMPORTANT THING IS I THRASHED XUANBIN! Yay. HAHA and now he owns me 3 dollars. HAHA but he paid off 2 dollars. HAHA So now i have the happy honour to point 1 to him everytime i see him! YAY. IM SO DAMN HAPPY AND I WAS LAUGHING LIKE MAD DURING CHINESE. WHOOHOOO :)

Another thing was, Mrs Ng didn't come so we had free periods! Yay :)

Sugar we're going down :(

Last night gave me the worst headache and today i was half dead. I didn't want to wake up at all. But still, yesterday night was fun! And, thanks for the ride home, yeahh! :)

I had to eat 2 panadols to numb the blooody headache today, and I went back to sleep at 12 after i finish my piano lesson, and then i wake up at 1 to prepare to go out to meet Siying and Luanne. We went to esplanade to find music score, but ended up we couldn't borrow it at all cause we don't have premium membership -.- Wth, but still we had a fun time camwhoring :)

I want to run a blooody high fever that will land me in the hospital so I can skip school for many days. I shall go to sleep with my hair wet tonight, and this should give me a fever :)

I'd wait and see how long you'd take.

I flip and turned like mad yesterday in my sleep, and i ended up sleeping my head at the end of my bed, wth -.-

Im so damn bored. Everybody is sai, my mum taught me from young never to trust anyone but yourself cause everyone might be lying to you inside. So, Im so gonna heed her advice now, thinking that it makes some sense and it's rather true.

Happy Birthday Shermeen(Lao Sherm)!

I've got like 982019728937128973 pictures to upload since last week.
But, im very lazy and i don't have the mood now! And, i shall upload all when i gets today's photos at shermeen's party from Siying/Sharon/Lucinda!

Wednesday was pretty funny cos me, vanessa and luanne went to queensway to meet siying for lunch since she didn't attend school. Luanne and siying ate spoon laksa, me and vanessa ate curry chicken. Luanne asked me: "Why they never give me chopsticks, how to eat?" And i just laughed damn loudy :)

Commendation day parade rehearsal after school on thursday which was blooody stupid cos it lasted for like half an hour only. And the stupiest thing is that ** *** DROP. Amanda and Ziyan came over to my house to bake cake for shermeeen! We went to west mall to buy many things first. I was the supervisor and we camwhored pretty much.

Caught Confessions of a shopaholic today. Shermeen's party in the night. Damn fun, camwhored alot. And all the couple shots. HAHA and we play couple cheat's, single cheat, and and and heartattack. I think i put on a zillion pounds. Time to lose weight!

I couldnt control what im saying/thinking. I am really sorry, it's all my damn fault. I cant stop feeling @)(#&*(@&#*(!&#.

IM FEELING SUPER UPSET, CAN SOMEONE GIVE ME A HUG? :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :(